sigh.......another emo day.... in the morning during morning assembly......... straight away kena caught by chng.... scold mi..... well.... every1 look at mi.....haiz.... heck la.... hu cares? den tok to mi again........ call my parents........ haiz..... den suspend mi till 5.30 todae..... welll... den he wanted mi to write a reflection of 500 WORDS abt y i pon chinese lesson...... sigh.... n i rili did..... mayb i shld write it down here since i dint pass up to him n brought it bak home.......2 sides of foolscap... lol....

I did not attend the chinese lesson after school at 2.15 as i was not feeling well and i did not tell my form teacher neither did i tell my chinese teacher in charge of the lesson. I think it was also partly because of peer influence as my friends told me to not go for the lesson. But mostly, it was because i was not feeling well and i wasnt in the mood. Furthermore, skip also told me to skip the lesson. Which made me decide not to go for the chinese lesson. I thought of the consequences of skipping classed when i skipped the chinese class. However, i was really not in the mood to think so much . My mind was just blank. I wanted to take the whole day to think about what is going on, bothering me and why i wont get back to my normal self.( aiya i jus type short form la. formal must type until so cham ok continue) I always wonder how others handle stress so well. coz of my mood, i neglected my whole mid yr exam. i did not studied. everytym wen i open my book n try to study i jus cant concentrate wif all the tings in my ming. i jus cant put it aside lyk in the past. i want to get into a Jc n haf a gd future as i noe the diff in the pay btwn poly grads n U grads. however, i jus cant put my mind to concentrate on my studies. everydae i cum to sch, i bring my body w/o my soul. i just cant concentrate in class most of the time. there were alot of ppl hu counscelled mi b4. My chers, frens, cousins n relatives. however, they dont get my point n it wasnt of much help to mi. mayb i nid a real counscellor( HER ) i m looking forward to the june hols as i wld b given alot of tym to tink abt wads goin on. i always wonder how pple handle stress wen come tings happen. it is lyk tings happen to dem n straight away the nxt dae they wld go bak to their normal self. i tink i really haf changed alot. in the past, frm sec 1 to sec 3, i jus had to come to sch, study n return home straight to play my games. even wen tings happen to mi n i will b in a bad mood, i jus had to giv my fren a call n tok to her n the nxt dae i wld go bak to my normal self. however, since the start of this year. 1 ting happen n even if i tok to my fren the matter will still contain inside of mi n every other obstacle that comes wld just continue to bottle up inside mi n coz mi to b in a bad mood every single dae n i wld not b able to concentrat on my studies neither wld i haf the mind to do it. every single min i wld jus b tinking of wad happened n y it has happened n y it is so very very hard to let it go. everday i cum to sch, pple wld jus ask y i lyk to act cool n sum hu noe mi wld ask mi y i everydae oso so emo. i dont tink i haf got any true friends in sch. even wen u always tell mi n ask mi not to mix wif the 403's i jus dint bothered abt it. mayb it is coz of their characters i can clique wif n they make mi laugh so dat i wld nt b so sad. sumtimes i wld go tinkin abt it... are they bad influence? i wld go out wif dem always to play n left no tym to study. i haf alrdy decided dat the first three wks of my june hols, i m gg to strive hard in my subjects n i will not go out. but i wonder if i can refuse my temptation to go out. i wan to get gd results 4 my O lvls n i haf alrdy set my mind to study. however, evertym i wana study i jus cant concentrate wif the tings in my mind. they kyp gg in circles. my frens tell mi to cheer up n get on wif life. however, no1 understands mi now.( now dat shes gone ) i haf alrdy decided. no matter wad, i will put my studies as 1st priority( althou 1st priority is my frens >.<) n i will strive hard starting frm june n i will not offend the school rules anymore. the end.

SIGH FUCKING SIAN. end